December Mood

It’s finally December – how fast time just flew by. Summer doesn’t feel that far away anymore…
I can remember when I was younger, time just didn’t seem to pass, but since my twenties, time literally flies away faster than you actually want. These days I have many thoughts and worries about my future, which makes me tired and a little bit exhausted – just trying still to laugh it away and be happy, while your mind is just jammed with too many worries. What should I do after my studies, am I able to start things I always wanted to do, should I go to Vietnam and start an entirely new life, or should I just stay in Germany… Is this what I am meant to be? I don’t want to be employed… I want to have the freedom to be creative, working for your own, doing what I love and just experience life to the fullest.
I have so many dreams and goals I want to reach in this life, but right now the path just doesn’t look clear as I want it to be. Sometimes in life we are just stuck at one point and don’t really know where to move. We are afraid of losing things, we are afraid of taking risks and fail. But actually who cares if you are going to fail right? I think the one who will be hurt the most is still yourself. I know that there’s nothing wrong with failing – it is more important to stay strong, learn from it, reflect on your failures, to stand up and try harder. My actual problem right now is not that I am afraid of being a failure, I am more afraid that I will regret things by making the wrong decisions. Any decision I will make now may result in losing people I love or having to sacrifice something. My heart and brain just ached and I still have no clue how to solve all these problems – just waiting for the new year and hoping to get a free mind and soul.

But there is something very exciting what I want to tell you! These photos were made last week during a Music Video Shoot for a vietnamese artist, who is quite popular in Vietnam. The MV is kinda cheesy but it is still beautiful. The production of this video was very exhausting but we had plenty of fun while doing it. I know I am not the best actress, but I think T. did a really great job. I am looking forwaaaaard! going to share the video with you when it is done.

About this look – wearing my favourite-december coat:
Hat – 66 The Label
Wrap Over Coat – Hugo Boss Orange, similar here
Boots – Shoegeeks, similar here
Bag – Chloé Drew Bag